Todo se me va entre las manos.... sientro como si pronto sola fuera a estar de nuevo... la persona que mas quiero, temo, me va a abandonar algun dia... por ser tan triste y estupida....y ultimamente
I've been too sad. I've cried too much. I feel so wrong. I just feel so empty inside and I am screwing it all up in my life. I feel sorry for not being able to make someone else happy. I always make people mad. I feel so sad... like a beggar. I feel like a beggar all the time. I feel like I am begging for love. I never get it. I feel alone. All people are my enemy, I convince my self of that... and then my sadness and emptiness grows.
I want to see mom soon. I want to hug her... I can't cry in front of her. She will think there is something wrong with me and she will be sad. I just feel so lonely, so unloved and it makes me cry a lot. It makes me feel pain inside. This feeling sophocates me, exasperates me... I just want to yell. The right side of my brain just hurts so much. It's all so heavy. I feel like keeping quiet while I cry... I don't want to wake him up. I don't want to cause sorrow nor anger. I just want to be loved, I just want to be loved... all I ever want it was a little hug...
Oh, I feel so sad.
